A Poem...

For some reason I love this poem I don't know why. I read it from a book called "Sheet Music" and it's author is Anonymous....

The Wall
Their wedding picture mocked them from the table, these two, whose minds no longer touched each other. They lived with such a heavy barricade between them that neither battering ram of words nor artillery's of touch could break it down. Somewhere, between the oldest child's first tooth and the youngest daughter's graduation, they lost each other.

Throughout the years, each slowly unraveled that tangled ball of string called self, and as they tugged at stubborn knots each hid his searching from the other. Sometimes she cried at night and begged the whispering darkness to tell her who she was. He lay beside her, snoring like a hibernating bear, unaware of her winter.
She took a course in modern art, trying to find herself in colors splashed upon a canvas, and complaining to other women about men who were insensitive. He climbed into a tomb called "the office," wrapped his mind in a shroud of paper figures, and buried himself in customers.

Slowly, the wall between them rose, cemented by the mortar of indifference. One day, reaching out to touch each other, they found a barrier they could not penetrate, and recoiling from the coldness of the stone, each retreated from the stranger on the other side. For when love dies, it is not in a moment of angry battle, nor when fiery bodies lose their heat. It lies panting, exhausted, expiring at the bottom of a wall it could not scale.

IT'S NOVEMBER!!! nobody cares *shrug*

I've been from Texas, to Oklahoma where I had an unfortunate accident with my left knee then we went to Colorado via Kansas from Colorado where we experienced the tiny cages of large animals at the Denver Zoo to close encounters of the Elk kind and mountain goat kind as well at Estes Park we headed to Nebraska where we are until next week when we'll travel to South Dakota and Iowa right before we travel to somewhere near by for Thanksgiving with my road partner's family. That's November so far. The talk with THAT person went well. We're friends and we like each other...just like not LIKE if you know what I mean. If it's gonna be more it'd surprise me, he confuses the crap outta me like no one else! But we're friends...still. I have no idea when I'm going home or where I'll be when I go back or who I'll be back with when that happens I'm sure I'll put some little blurb up on my blog but for now this is all you get. OOOO ahhhh November. Whatever *tosses hands up carelessly*

Digging Deeper

So what happens when THAT person is talking with you and you just have the urge to start asking all these deep questions of them? What happens when after your conversation and after thinking about them for a bit you write something and then instead of being smart and just deleting it you send it to THAT person instead? Dumb move? Right move? How THAT person will react I don't know because I did that. I had determined to write what I was thinking about him and then bam instead of pressing backspace I hit send. Yes, I was conscious and not under the influence of any type of entity or drug. Now I sit here wondering how he's going to take it and if he's going to read into it too much because I don't want to have THAT conversation yet. It's still too soon even if there are times that it almost kills me to not tell him what I want to tell him. I am so messed up.

Ghost Hunters...it's my thing.

So I was always interested in the tv show Ghost Hunters but never really got the opportunity to really watch it until recently. I managed to watch a few episodes and I was just completely hooked by the middle of the 1st episode I saw. I've always had an interest in the ahem...paranormal. It feels so weird to be saying that but I have to be honest. I think it was one of the many many reasons why I got into youth ministry. I know it sounds silly but when you are doing youth ministry there is in essence a battle between good and evil. There's a point where you are helping to balance the scales for good or evil. Anyway so the other night I got super excited because Ghost Hunters is branching out to do Ghost Hunters Academy and as soon as I saw it I was like THAT IS SO FOR ME!! So heck the next time there is a casting call for Ghost Hunters Academy I am so there. Just some thoughts from me for now. Hope everyone had a very happy Halloween.

An Emotional Night...

Well my friends yesterday turned out to be okay. I got a little stressed around the end of the day though here's why. We were in the process of setting up our 2nd show of the day going on at 3 PM. When suddenly 2 not 1 but TWO of our legs broke AT the same time. Yes that's right. TWO!!! We had kids helping us but it wasn't their fault we have no idea what happened or why our hinge's just snapped in the middle on one. The second one the metal broke at the corner and that made the whole thing almost snap. So imagine if you will having 4 legs and then having 4 kids helping you one being right in the middle of this very large screen that could give you a good knock on the head if it fell on you. Your 2 center legs SNAP in half suddenly and one of your kids is under the middle. What do you do? Yes that's right as I was starting to run out from under the frame I noticed one of our kids still standing under it and all I could think was HOLY CRAP HE'S GONNA GET HURT. I turned quickly and caught the top of the frame pushing it up with all my strength and told the kid to get out from under it. I held up the frame with the help of the other boys for a good 5 minutes and it got HEAVY! But our show actually went well and the kids loved it. But afterwards when we went to fix our frames they didn't have a drill that worked for more than 2 minutes. So at 6 we went back to our motel to finally get some rest because we were tired. Well at night when I was finally sleeping I had dreams and not a single one was good. One made me cry for some reason and then for another reason I kept having one nightmare over and over again but every time I had it it got worse. I actually woke up when my roommate came in the room after her morning swim. My back hurt and I was trembling from the dream I'd just come out of it. It was not a restful night. But the day proved to be calming for me. It's nice and warm and sunny and breezy just like I like. But I'm tired because of my stupid emotional night. Hopefully tonight's sleep will be better. And also we still need to find a power drill to fix our 2 legs. Hope everyone's weekend is going better than mine. And as for how my relationship with "THAT person" is going...well it's not. I've just totally given up and I don't really care anymore. I'm not going to waste my energy on someone who doesn't seem to care for me. End of story.

New Orleans!!

Well folks it was a beautiful day in the neighborhood today. My road partner and I went to New Orleans and OH MY GOSH!! We had so much fun! There were tons of people there, lots of shops, lots of places to eat. I mean New Orleans is a festive town year round. One thing both me and my road partner were a little upset about was the ever famous Bourbon Street. Bourbon St. was stupid. Yes all you alcoholics can boo me out there I don't care it was retarded. You could see so much cooler stuff down on Decature St. which was like 3 streets down. Not to mention it wasn't HALF as crowded as Bourbon St was and there was fresh air coming in from the Mississippi River. Bourbon St. smelled like alcohol and a trash can someone had thrown up in. It was bad. We went in the cathedral right on Jackson Square and the French Quarter was really really nice. Bourbon St was the only thing not super cool about our day. I got a few presents for my family back home but the only catch is that I'm sending them to Sarah's house so parents ya'll have to make a date to go to Sarah's and get your presents and you have to do it BEFORE Thanksgiving!!!!
Okay that's all folks. Love to ya's!!